Dreams that Impact Reality

Have you ever had a dream and woke up feeling sad, mad, angry, emotional, scared or happy? Ever been mad at someone for something they did in a dream? Ever had a dream that left you scared and it impacts your mood/feelings/thoughts? Ever had a dream you didn't want to end?

Today, I had a vivid dream that impacted me emotionally. Every 1-2 weeks I call one of my favorite people in the world, my Grandma, to check up on her especially at a time like this(Quarantine/Corona Virus).

In the dream, the setting was pretty normal, family sitting on the couch around the living-room talking at her house. Everyone was there, my uncles on my dad's side, my aunt, my mom and me mingling and laughing or telling stories like we always do when we visit her.

As my dream occurred, I noticed she wasn't in the room. I asked one of my Uncles, "Where's Grandma? How is she doing?", all conversation around me stopped and focused in on my Uncle, who looked as through he knew something everyone else didn't, real hesitant.

With a concerned look on his face, he announced "She passed away, she died." The room went silent for a second, but everyone seemed to act nonchalant and went back to talking to each other as if nothing was said.

Immediately, I thought, what happened? Why didn't my Uncles that live with her say anything? My Uncle said "She was looking for something that she couldn't find..." and to me that meant she died worrying, but it also left me curious, what was she looking for that she couldn't find in her house?

I felt sad, emotional, like she is a staple, the matriarch, the reason we're all sitting here and no one cares that she's not sitting here, alive. I felt as though she's had a full life and been through a lot, but I felt like I wasn't ready to let her go and that I wanted more quality time with her.

Immediately upon waking up, I thought, all week I've been thinking about calling her. I need to call her now, this dream was clearly a sign.

This dream was a wake up call for me, but it also shouldn't have taken for this dream to occur for me to call her. I called her, she picked up and I held about a 25 minute phone call with her, I instantly felt better after hearing her say "Hello Baby."

I needed to hear her voice, I needed her to make it all better like Grandmas do. I needed to hear her laugh, have a conversation with her and I needed her presence to put me at ease.

That dream gave me the kick in the butt I needed to call her, and ironically I'm glad I had it. The next time we speak, I'll tell her about the dream because this isn't the first one. I can imagine the conversation in my head now... She'd hug me, kiss me on the cheek, pat me on the lap and say "I'm not going anywhere baby, I'm right here" with a smile on her face and that would bring me so much comfort.