How Do You Remove Blockages Placed In Your Life?

It's been 4 months since my last post and just a few minutes ago, I had a self realization that remedied the blockages I've been having in life. There has been a lot going on emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually, and socially in my personal life and I've been MIA because I wanted all that was happening to stop. However, I didn't realize that I had the power to snap out of it and remove those blockages all along.

There's been an overwhelming feeling of continuous things occurring and I didn't know what to do about them: trying to rise above and choose to be different from the old version of me, communication/trust/accountability issues within my relationship, having my independence in adulting, missing pets and family members who've passed away over the last 2 years, making big decisions at work, the pandemic, wanting to quit my job but not knowing what's next, lacking motivation, etc.

I've been truly checking in on friendships and family members, yet stuck in this lack of motivation. I was avoiding and running from uncomfortable and honest conversations at work and in life, and making excuses. I began to realize it's okay to make mistakes, everyone makes mistakes but it's not okay to continue to make the same ones and not be honest with yourself to take accountability. I've been in this state on confusion and being overwhelmed not seeing a way out, and now I feel like it's time to do the work and accept the growth even when it's not easy.

I've been growing more comfortable with talking about the uncomfortable "elephants in the room" with Dre, and realizing my own flaws and the ones that exist within my relationship. I've created this block in my life as a way to cope but not cope with the buildup and that wasn't okay. The block I placed in my life felt like the best way to handle excessive stress. My solution for excessive stress became not to deal with it, to run from it, to forget about it and all three of those items has only made me feel emotionally numb and stressed out more. For a while, I ignored serious issues instead of truly dealing with them to better myself.

Instead, for months, I sat in this sunken place that I let life put me in (no GET OUT). There has been several back-to-back moments of unhappiness, anxiousness, trauma, the blame-game, the bad outweighing the good, this "I don't know" void of uncertainty, feelings of "I don't want to face this or I don't want to deal with that", so I didn't. Having this realization of I let life swallow me, I let life weigh me down and change my character. I can't continue to allow this to occur. I have to get up and do something about it if I want to change my situation, was the wake-up call I needed.

There is no excuse for the fact that I haven't updated my blog in 4 months. There's no excuse for why I shouldn't be transparent and honest with the people I hold close. There's no excuse for why I am not speaking up and out about things with my partner. There's no excuse why for why I wasn't checking on myself more.

There's no excuse for why I handled life's curveballs in a child-like way when I have made the transition into adulthood. I have to make things happen on my own, get out of my own head, and get out of my own way about a lot of things. I can't be hard on myself about things. I have to take the necessary steps to change, not be afraid of the outcome, not worry about things not being rainbows and sunshine. I have to work to decrease stress and figure my life out, because adulting is real and the time is now (I'll be 27 soon).

How do you remove blockages you place in your life? YOU do the work to remove them and STOP creating EXCUSES that will stand in the way of your GROWTH. You can't continue to blame everyone else and everything else around you for your life. Growth isn't pretty, but it still has to be done, and I am glad I finally made it to this space in life.

BE BLESSED. BE HUMBLE. HAPPY 2022!